Today was much worse

I don't really feel to up to writing to night but i have to keep my promise that i would blog everyday. So I'm going to make this short and sweet. Got test results back. I'm not going into the hospital. I really am in a lot of pain and I'm really pissy and i don't really want anyone to talk to me touch me or even think about messing with me. I really honest wish i could feel better i really do. But that wont be for a very long time. I want to go into the hospital get the medicine and get this done and over with. I would rather suffer great short pain than a slow agonizing pain. I'm going to bed I'm quite exhausted and i have no energy left but i probably will not get any sleep. So at that good night!

The last couple of days

I have been under the weather as i guess thats what you call it, I still have not gotten my skin cultures back yet. So that means that i have to stay home from school till i get them back to know what to do. So i sit here writing todays blog, feeling as though i want to throw my guts up, i didnt start to get this feeling till 2 hours ago, not sure why but i feel really really sick. I hope im not getting swine flu, Gahh well this is going to be a shot post because i cant think straight anyway ill have a post for you tomorrow!

What are you Thankful For?

So happy, THANKSgiving! I had the most amazing thanksgiving. I love being with my family. Its so amazing, I made green bean casserole for the first time this year! It was soo good, oh and my Grampy taught me how to carve a turkey, it was so gross but so cool at the same time.
WHAT I AM THANKFUL FOR! (: Yay!
1. My Heavenly Father And My Brother Jesus Christ
of course im grateful for him, hes the reason i get each day to live this life he has given me and im so proud to be able to have the relationship i have with him. I can tell him anything and feel nothing other than love and compassion, Jesus knows exactly how i feel when my skin is the worst, he is there for me and is saying i know how you feel and i believe him. I dont think i can go a day with out either of them. They complete my life, my family, and and happiness. If it weren't for the two of them, i would be lost, a stuck up girl, and think i was better than everyone else. They humbled my soul knowing that I'm not the highest on the chain of command. I know I'm always going to be able to know i have flaws challenges that only i could handle and god would never give me something i could not. Im thankful for what my heavenly father has in mind for me in this amazing life he has given me!

2. My Family
Yes i know, they drive me crazy at times, and sometimes i can't stand them. But honestly i dont know what i would do with a different family. I mean I dont really remember when my mom hit her head and got her head injury, i just remember moments as growing up when she was the crazy mother i grew up with and love. I mean sometimes I can't stand her but it never means i dont deeply love her, ha im trying not to cry as i write this. I love you mom! Sometimes I wished that i could take the greatest moments of mine and her lives together and put them on repeat. I love audree, and clairee they are the greatest sisters you could ever have! As we are speaking clairee keeps asking why im crying. I told her she has to read it for herself. I know i fight with clairee all the time, and honestly i dont think shes knows that im just trying to be a mother to her. Its just my nature and I love clairee. Audree well shes the best friend everyone should have in their lives! I mean shes always knows whats wrong, and knows my exact emotions, and when i dont feel good she always is there to give me and hug and kiss on the cheek. Now that she is growing up and is now an "Adult" I dont spend that much time with her than when i use to. I will always love her and her compassion to always know the right thing to say. Of course my father, wow hes a great man! If there was such thing as a hero in this world it would be him! He has taught my the way i should live my life, and the way god wants me too. Honestly, (not so great at but im working on it) Trust, Faith, Compassion, Love, and of course boys! (: My dad always tells me what his dad always told him "When the brain isn't smart, the body suffers." and i dont know what better advise you could get from that. No matter what I do wrong and dont always do as im told, He always is there for me, He has taught me the greatness of Forgiveness, and that it is better to ask for forgiveness than permission. Hes the worlds Greatest Dad! And I can never forget my crazy, ironic, silly, gassy, and always giving advise grandfather, GRAMPY! haha i love him and how he told me how him and my grammy got threw their lives together and how the fell in love with each other in high school. I see how he always is looking out for me no matter what crazy advise he gives me, or anyone in my family, and sometimes i dont want to hear it, but i should, hes older and WAy more wiser than me and i should take that as a blessing. I love my family and i have no idea what i would do with out them. I love you Dad, Mom, Audree, Clairee, Grampy and my entire family!

&& last but not least
3. Modern Medicine
I know its a stupid subject, some say its not but i think i would never be able to live in any other time period, i realized that i have no idea how i would live with eczema without the many medications, that they have out there, I know there is no cure for Eczema and i wish there was but honestly i will always be glad to know the great men and women that have gone out of their way to make me feel better. and to help to make my life way better!


And with that im very thankful! im glad to know these amazing people i call my family, and the amazing doctors who dont go on vacation just to make sure i don't go into the hospital, or those who stay at work just to call me on thanksgiving to tell me the news whether im sick sick or not!
AMEN!

Ha I decided that I'm going to do 25 days of service just so i can bring up my righteousness and Christmas spirit! I wish that all will be safe if you travel out this year, and wear your seat belt. Ha i really wish it was Christmas time all year long, i love the spirit that everyone is in the giving mood, that's how god wants it to be. We should always be in giving mood. I believe that if you give everything you have to the lord, he gives it to the people that needs it, you will be the richest man in the world. I'm ready to do secret Santa, i love giving away, and the family having no idea its us! Ha so yahh apparently my cultures from Friday were like really freaky and the doctor is sending them to some other guy to check them out, yahh now i wait forever again! gahhh i hate waiting on those stupid cultures, anyway i feel much better today. Mom and sisters are NOT i repeat are Not going to Arkansas. My grandpa is sick so my mom is taking care of him, yahh always fun, I'm ready to go back to school Monday, i miss seeing my friends everyday. oh and I'm not allowed to leave my house AT ALL. in fear that i might get something worse that what i already have, anyway just wanted to right a pointless blog post, guess i completed that goal! HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! (:

Exactly 1 month from christmas!

Today was much better, i just in general had a better mood. I don't really know why i just did. Dad came home today. I find out if i go in the hospital back by tomorrow. Just crossing my fingers right now. I'm suppose to be going to Arkansas, that's not going to happen so I'm staying home with dad all weekend while the whole rest of them family gets to go to ARKASAS. Woo anyway Thanksgiving is tomorrow! woo I'm so excited. I love the holidays with my family, as much as i don't get along with them all the time. I really do love them (: So yeah I am not looking forward to going to the hospital if i have to. But its okay ill get over it. Guess what i realized today its exactly 1 month and 3 days till my 15 Birthday!!!!! I'm so excited. I love birthdays! So happy holidays to everyone, oh and remember Thanksgivings day is the worst day to drive on the roads so drive super careful! I hope everyone is getting ready for Christmas! ohh yess and Black Friday that i wish didn't exists

Pretty much a Bad Day,

Today was not the greatest, and pretty much the worst, i just in general want to hit everyone in my path, my skin hurts, which puts me in a crappy mood, No one wants to step on my toes in fear of being struck with fire! Jk, I really wish my skin would go away some days, it really is a pain sometimes, iv had to take ibuprofen like every 3 hours just to knock the pain down a little bit. People ask me, whats your one wish, I would always say i wish i never had eczema but then i think if i didn't have i would have no idea what i would do with my day because, life i surrounded by it, my life would be totally different and i don't know what i would do with out my free time, Ha its kind of ironic, but I'm just taking it day by day and wish it will just past, like i always say. It can't rain forever.
I really am glad God is on my side right now, I thank him everyday for giving me one more day to live. (:

Day at the doctor

I went to see the mighty Dr. Wasserman, i got shots today, and skin cultures, i really do hate both of those things, so i have this skin infecting that i can only get antibiotics by shot, as i was told, so I'm not in such a great mood, i thought i would just update you guys

Winter comes,

So iv decided, December and(or) November are the worst months for my skin. You know that staph infection I've been fighting for about 2 almost 3 months now, well guess what i get the wondrous opportunity to go to the hospital, whooo! NOT, do you see my enthusiasm, ANYway, we have had a whole lot of excitement here at our house, and let me tell you, when you have 3 month old puppy in the toddler stage, It has just about run me out of breath, here's the most wonderful picture of her when shes not running around the house pissing everyone off. Courteous of my mother taking this picture Dee Jordan

So I went and saw New Moon, Its just about the most amazing movie I have ever seen, other than Star Wars, Im completely in love with Taylor Launter. I can not believe how well he acted in this movie i was right out of my mind to thing this movie would

would suck. Okay if you are a major twilight fan you proably
have already seen this movie but your crazy if you have not,
i dont think i have been in love with an actor in all my life,
like my grandma generation was, James Bond, My mothers was George Clunny, And Mine is Taylor Launter, i have never seen anything this amazing, and not going to lie iv decided im defecintly Team Jacob Just look at him he's amazing ---^^^^
Anyway back to the movie, so in the beginning i was completely shocked but yet, totally astounded, thenn when Jacob i mean Taylor showed up when it was raining and took off his shirt, i was like holy heck, I'm going to have go see that movie again because i missed the part where he didn't have his shirt of when it was raining, i was getting popcorn, Dang It! I'm just in love with how he go ALL his muscles i was like omj, anyway back to the movie i give it 5 stars it was the most amazing movie i have ever seen, i love what the director did to high light his Ab's and to highlight how all the wolves act around each other, i was just astounded you should most definitely go see it!

Its been awhile

Since the last time I've blogged sorry guys. Things have been in the way. I'm so excited, I might go to babysit two of the cutest girls, Charly and Piper, if Renee lets me.. So we got to go to the temple (Mom, me, Audree, Clairee) on Saturday with the primary crappers (ha ha a little insiders). It was really great, here's a picture; Courteous of Farm Girl Barbie

Yeah mom just being a typical mom. And the golden child (Clairee) cheesing because she knows shes cute.

But anywayy I got my H1N1 vaccine and let me tell you those shots hurt like a fork in the arm. But I've been getting shots week. Schools been good, but i wish i could get the summer here already. Haha but i can't believe Christmas break is right around the corner. Next week i have the entire week off for thanksgiving. I love the holidays, i miss the ones in Wyoming I miss having Christmas and thanksgiving with grandma, and all my cousins, i wish we could this year. So yeah I'm about to go to youth so ill be back so for sure!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS